So I’ve been struggling on how to start this post for awhile now. Do I just come out and say it? Or do I beat around the bushes and not bring it up? You guys.. I started eating eggs again. And I’m also eating fish. There… I said it.
Whhhew there’s a load off my chest.
I have been feeling a bit ‘off’ for a few weeks and no amount of sleep or vitamins were helping. I would go to bed at 9pm and wake up 10 hours later still feeling exhausted. My workouts were tough to get through and my ‘tired bed eyes’ never went away during the day. I have no idea what brought this on; maybe my increase in physical activity, maybe my lack of protein. I really don’t know but I knew something had to change.
I had my first egg since last September two weeks ago. I can’t say it was overly exciting or anything, I just needed some good fuel. And you guys and your #yolkporn were making me crave eggs again.
Leanne over at the Healthful Pursuit wrote a post a few weeks ago titled ‘Why I Stopped Being Vegan‘ that really made me think about my experience with veganism. Although I never experienced the bloating or meat cravings that Leanne talks about, I do know the feeling of constantly not feeling full.
Some days I get to work and crave food all day long. Actually crave is a bad word to describe it – I NEED food all day. No amount of beans, spinach, and apples can make me full. Other days though, I can munch on a granola bar in the morning and soup at lunch and be completely content until I get home at 7pm. It is extremely dysfunctional for me and I have really struggled to find a way to make my tummy happy.
It really hit me that maybe I have to listen to my body more when I stumbled across Leanne’s post, especially when I read:
The better I felt, the more I knew I was on the right path, the healthier I became, and the easier it was for me to work through my relationship with food.
I know there are vegans out there who are going to completely disagree with me. They will tell me I wasn’t eating properly in the first place or that I didn’t take enough supplements. But to be completely honest.. ultimately it’s my choice and this is the way I choose to fuel my body. Part of the reason I became vegan was for the animals and I am not changing my diet because I decided not to care about them anymore. I will make an effort to consume local free-range eggs. As for the fish.. I’m testing it out. I still struggle a bit with eating fish and not knowing where it came from.
I’m trying this new thing where I don’t label my diet and just eat food… food that I want to eat and not feel bad about eating it. And how it is going for me so far you ask? Awesome! I have eggs and fish about twice a week now and I find it has made a big difference for me. I’m still baking without eggs and trying to incorporate more protein into my meals and most importantly.. I’m happy. And that’s all that really matters, right?
How has your diet changed over the years?
Do you label your diet?